<sub>"Whats wrong?! The one person I thought would never abadon me, the one person I thought would never hurt me... The one person I believed cared about me more then anything in the world would rather spend his time away from me then with me just because I happen to actually get a boyfriend. Whats wrong? I lost the only person I thought I could trust with my life just because he can't fuck me anymore."

Okay, that was a lot harsher then even I intended or wanted it to be. Damn i t. Why did I have to care about Josh so much. This wouldn't hurt as bad if I didn't absolutely from the bottom of my heart adore him. A sigh left my lips, eyes closing as I fought back tears before opening them. I shook my head, not making eye contact with yet.

"Sorry, just forget it."</sub>

<sub>I knew Jason really didn't like Josh, to put it nicely, but hell Josh was my best friend, I was not going to give him up just because Jason didn't like him. Maybe it was a little selfish on my part but I had known Josh far longer then I had known Jason, and well Josh had been there for me all through my awful times. He had stood by me when I pushed everyone away, he had supported me as I continually let men pay for my services. He had stayed there when I got back and held me close. He had helped me feel like I wasn't a dirty person. Without Josh I probably would have never met Jason, and it was time Jason realised that. I'd have to talk to Jason about Josh. I just wasn't going to give him up, but I didn't want to lose Jason either. If only they could just make up and be at least civil to one another, it would make things so much easier for me and I would ultimately be happier.

"I am not going to stop being friends with you just because Jason doesn't like you. If he really does love me he'll see what his dislike for you is doing to me and you'll both be civil to one another. I can't deal with you two at each other's throats. I am not going to lose either of you, and its time you both dealt with that."

I spoke firmly trying not to look at him or his hand as he held mine. Tears were filling my eyes as I stared downwards at my lap, a few spilling over my eyelashes and falling down my soft cheeks. I heard him move his chair beside me, and I knew I couldn't avoid eye contact with him forever. I had to talk to Jason about this. I had to get him to see he had to be civil with Josh, that he couldn't be sooo... cold towards him. Josh was my best friend and if he wanted me to be nice to his, Danielle Hall, then he'd have to do the same with mine; Josh. A light flicked off in my brain as I thought of this, and I knew I had a good arguement on my side. I didn't want to lose Jason, I loved him so much, but he had to see he couldn't be so... posessive I guess.

I listened to his words, wondering slightly if he had been reading a self help book or something. Josh didn't normally say stuff like 'transitioning' but then again this wasn't a normal situation for either of us. Never in our time together had I ever felt so far from him. Normally I felt close to his heart, know I felt like there was fort knox between his heart and me. I forced myself to lift my head up, blue eyes blinking as tears rolled down my cheek watching him place his forehead on our hands that were entwined. He really did seem to feel bad about everything.

"Okay, apology accepted."</sub>

<sub>"No, he hasn't said that but... Its not good. I guess he feels threatened by you or something."

I sighed, gaze lowered to my lap as I bit my lower lip. Feeling his hand wipe away the tears I looked back up into his beautiful eyes. I put my hands on his waist, pulling myself closer to him as I rested my head beside his, hands travelling up his bag to embrace him in a hug. I had missed Josh so much. I hoped we could still be really close. I had missed telling him everything thats going on about my life, as well as just hanging out with him. Pulling back a bit I smiled softly,

"All I ask is that you try."</sub>

<sub>A small smile tugged at my lips, a bit of uncertainty and playfulness to my voice.

"I think he thinks that we were closer then best friends... That well, we've slept together. You got to me first or something..."

I explained, unsure if Josh would find this amusing or not. It was slightly since well, we had slept together on more then one occassion. When Jason wasn't around that was how our friendship worked. We comforted each other through it, and well he made me feel so much better about myself. I did have feelings for him before Jason arrived, boy I had wanted him as a boyfriend ever since we got so close but when Jason came all that changed. Josh became like a brother to me, and I fell for Jason.</sub>

<sub>"I know he adores me, but I guess he feels that at any minute your gonna steal me from him."

I replied, still a little uncertainty in there but a lot more playful, a laugh escaping my lips after him. I knew Josh would never do anything like that. We were just so close. He wouldn't do anything to hurt me, and we both knew where my heart was. With Jason's. Smiling I rested my head on his shoulder before kissing his cheek gently. Pulling away I smiled gently,

"Thanks Josh."</sub>